Has it really been two months since I last updated this thing?
And, gawd. That was quite an emotional time for me. My broken heart was a fresh open wound and I was in a very depressed state of mind, having believed that I had found my soulmate but lost him forever to some silly high school girl.
While I still believe I’ve found my soulmate and my heart is still in a healing process, I have reached a different stage in my life.
I’ve come to a point of feeling content with everything…maybe a few weeks to a month ago. But, it ultimately hit me about a week ago, during a brief moment of insanity when all of the emotions I’ve been bottling up finally exploded and it was all aimed at my best friend 5ever, Liam.
You see, on top of my healing heart, I’ve also been under an immense amount of stress at work and with my own personal life health-wise. I will not go into detail here.
Little did I know, Liam was also dealing with his own family health crisis at the same time…which makes me feel worse about everything that was said between the two of us last week. I’m sorry…for everything. all of it.
But, really. I’m at a different point in my life now. Yes, I will admit now that it will take a lot longer, if ever to fully mend my broken heart. But at the same time, I can say that I have fully accepted the situation for what it is. And at the end of the day, I just want my friend back.
More than that, I want my friend(s) back. PLURAL.
Lately, I’ve been so busy with everything work, work, and more work…that sometimes I’m surprised I even breathe. I miss my life, simple as that. I miss having fun and spending time with people, outside of work. I’m just tired…and honestly I’m feeling very very stuck. Which is why, I’ve been trying to get unstuck….is that even a word? Well, whether it is or not, I’m sure you know what I mean. If you’ve been keeping up with my instagram, you’ll notice that I’ve been spending a lot of time at the Curb. Why? For several reasons…
– Well, not only is it my favorite coffee shop on the island.
– But, the people who work there, not only are they some of my closest friends, but they’ve kinda grown to become my family. I love them all, every single one of them — some more than others, but nevertheless, they mean serious business to me.
– they provide my life with the fun and happiness I’ve been itching for, even if it’s the tiniest little bit of it. After a long stressful day at work or otherwise, even if it’s just seeing their lovely faces makes me smile.
– And lastly, well I sorta work here now. Well, helping out my friend Sumner really…because we all know he definitely needs the help.
I’ve also been trying to focus more on myself and my family. I mean, it makes sense considering certain circumstances. There are things I want to accomplish and places I want to see.
Recently in trying to stay focused on myself and my own personal happiness, I’ve not only been trying to surround myself with amazing friends and happy people, but I’ve also been trying to move along with my bakery/cafe ideas.
In fact, if you’ve kept up with my social media ventures you’ve probably noticed that I started a second blog that I hope to have follow the path to bakery/cafe success.
If you’re curious and/or want to join me on my journey, check it out…
P.S. it’s still a working progress.